CONFIDENCE MUST COME FIRST
I want to be completely honest and the first to admit that I did not always have the confidence that I do now.
The Roxi prior to my online blogging journey was quite shy, and I am still shy with crowds and prefer one-on-one interaction so that I can get to know the person better, and not have so many people staring. I can get up and speak in front of an audience if I really have to, I just prefer to not be the center of attention.
HOW MY CONFIDENCE GREW WITH TIME
I used to care more about what people thought of me than I do now. I find that the less I care, the more peaceful my life is. I learned that I cannot please everyone and if someone loves me at my worst, without make-up, and messy hair, then I know that they will love me at my best. I just learned to appreciate the people who have been there for me without judgment going through rain or shine. These are the people you want to surround yourself with because we are the reflection of the five people closest to us.
NOW I AM AT AN AGE WHERE...
The things that I once thought were important to me are not so important to me anymore. For instance, as I grow older, I know that time is a valuable resource and I don't want to spend an hour of my time getting glam every day. I used to not want to leave the house without makeup unless I was going to the gym or dermatologist's office.
PEOPLE MAY NOT KNOW
I struggled with acne for the majority of my teenage years from puberty to young adolescent age and it really hurt my self-esteem. I would name all the medicines I took from oral to topical to fight acne, but it would be too much to name. Basically, I tried just about everything under the sun including Proactiv and Accutane.
MY PASSION FOR SKINCARE
Because I struggled with acne and its effects on one's self-esteem during the majority of my life, I am so passionate about skincare. As a result, the doctors whom I regularly visited were dermatologists. From a young age as early as 12, I would always go to the dermatologist and use every prescription I was prescribed hoping that one day I could look and feel beautiful without acne.
A CURSE AND A BLESSING
While acne haunted me because of its vicious cycle forming into a red bump, turning into a dark spot once it fades, and then leaving me with teeny tiny indentations to remember it's marking, it was a blessing that I was introduced to the importance of skincare maintenance at a young age.
I SAY ALL THIS BECAUSE
I want you to know that you are not alone. The life of a blogger may look glamorous with the pictures, hair, make-up, and outfits, but we battle with insecurities and issues, too. Even the most beautiful person whom you and I think are stunning may have dealt with something or is going through something.
AT THE END OF THE DAY
When the make-up comes off, it is not how we look that is most important, what matters is how we make someone feel and the confidence they have in you.
